January 21st 2016

Today I was offered a job. I interviewed for it yesterday and they offered me it today. And I declined. 

I thought long and hard about it and came to the conclusion that because I had to think about it that probably meant I didn’t want it. To begin with I thought I was just holding out in case another/better job pops up, but I fully decided that I didn’t like the job I was offered. I’d been iffy from the start. 

The one thing stopping me from declining was that I didn’t want to disappoint the company, I didn’t want them to feel like I’d wasted their time. I’d been for two interviews and they clearly liked me enough to offer me the role, and then I say no. And the guy who interviewed me was really nice, and I just felt a bit bad for declining. I’d found the job through a recruitment agency, and I also felt bad for wasting the lady from the agency’s time too. 

She was pushing me to accept the job because if I did accept the job then she got paid, I get that much. And I felt bad for letting her down, but at the end of the day I shouldn’t take a job on the sole reason that I don’t want to disappoint people. 

I still feel bad, but I don’t think that the role would’ve been enjoyable for me. And I am currently in employment (waiter, restaurant) so it’s not like I’m desperate to take the first job that is offered to me. I want to find a job that allows me to write creatively and this one that I was offered doesn’t do that.  

Until tomorrow, I’m waiting for the right one. 

Jacn