May 30th 2017
Today I had a seven hour meeting at work. That’s an awfully long time to be sat in one room. We had some of the product/project managers/owners over from Germany to talk us through the positioning of a new product.
We had a similar meeting to this one almost a year ago when I started at the company – in my first job after University, and I remember that I barely said a word throughout the seven hour meeting because I was cripplingly anxious about speaking aloud in a room full of people.
It’s something I really struggled with to begin with. I’d have to like, talk myself into it before I could pluck up the courage to say my opinion or suggestion.
Today wasn’t like that. Today I could speak freely. That’s something I’ve noticeably progressed with since I started at the company: my fear of public speaking. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still massively introverted in general, but I’ve improved on it in a work environment and it’s kind of transferred into my public life too.
I’ve said it previously, but I’m now no longer afraid of sending food back in a restaurant if they got my order wrong. That sounds tiny but it’s a big thing. And my job is to thank for that.
In today’s meeting I could contribute to discussions, add value and say what I was thinking, whereas I’d previously stay quiet because I was too scared of speaking up.
I like to think I’ve come a long way. I’ve actually come as far as enjoying meetings now.
And, halfway through the meeting, we were treated to Nandos.
Until tomorrow, that made it doubly enjoyable.