February 14th 2020
Today I got my first tattoo. I’ve been thinking about getting one for a while, and because I’m in Queenstown, New Zealand, I figured there weren’t many better places to get one.
Here it is:
Going in, I didn’t really know the exact design I wanted, but I knew the general concept. I knew that I wanted mountains, and waves. And I’ll explain why in a bit, but I didn’t know how I wanted them laid out. I was thinking about getting them in a circle, like in the logo at the top of this page. But the tattoo artist suggested a point, because it better fits the shape of the arm, and I liked that.
So he scribbled on me in sharpie, and then in permanent ink. No going back now.
Because I know everyone will ask, here’s the backstory:
There’s a Dr Seuss book/poem called ‘Oh The Places You’ll Go’ (http://denuccio.net/ohplaces.html) and it contains the line “kid, you’ll move mountains”. It’s a motivational line in a motivational poem that tells the kid he can do anything if he sets his mind to it. It’s a poem about making mistakes, and travelling, and growing as a person. And the line ‘Kid you’ll move mountains’ has always stuck with me. It’s been my Instagram bio for four years.
Also, I’m in New Zealand and the mountains here are fucking cool and they make me feel tiny and insignificant and the world is huge and beautiful.
A few years ago I had a panic attack in the ocean. I was on holiday in Greece. I was lying on the beach, and saw this buoy about 500m in the distance. Im pretty scared of ocean swimming, but I told myself that I could make it out to the buoy. So I tried. And on the way out I had a panic attack because I thought I was going to die. Because I was far from the buoy and far from the shore. And it had taken all of my energy, and I could barely swim.
So, I had to talk myself out of the panic attack. A panic attack in the ocean is an easy way to drown. And I knew that the only way I would survive is if I calmed myself down. So I focused. And I breathed. And I made it to the buoy. And then I made it back to shore.
The waves show the power of mental strength, and that I have control over my mental health.
And that’s the story. I think it’s a good story.
Until tomorrow, I also think it’s a good tattoo.