April 14th 2020
Today I really struggled to focus on any of the work I was supposed to be doing because I’d got this “what is even the point” mentality into my head.
I got super unnecessarily wound up about the way a guy I work with handled a situation that had nothing to do with me, and then after anger came apathy. Because, like, I decided that there was no point in getting angry. Given the climate through which we are currently living, there’s no use getting wound up. We’ve all just gotta get through it, and that’ll be a lot easier for me to cope with if I’m not spitting flames and starting fires.
And so I did stop being angry, but I couldn’t bring myself to do any work for the rest of the afternoon because I no longer cared. Sorry Ross.
I’m thinking that my irritability is due to the fact that I didn’t sleep much last night, so tonight I’m going to bed early in the hope that I’ll be more on it tomorrow.
Until tomorrow, we’ll see how that goes.