September 18th 2020 Today I thanked myself and went for a 7am run. That meant I was knackered by 10am, but it was better than the alternative of a 7pm run. I organised to, from Monday, start running with my boss at 5pm directly after we finish work. That shifts my schedule forward by a few hours and means I don’t have to wake up at stupid o’clock to run before work. Until tomorrow, hopefully on this timescale, I’ll be less tired. Jacn Continue reading Timescale


September 17th 2020 Today I need to do my absolute best to wake up at 7am tomorrow and go for a run. To do that, I needed to go to bed thirty eight minutes ago. Thirty nine. I stared at the screen for a bit at the end of that sentence. Forty. Really, there’s not much for me to say today. I mean, there’s some stuff. Some work stuff. Some life stuff. But nothing I feel particularly compelled to talk about right now. Uhhhh, yeah I think we’re done here. Until tomorrow, sleep tight. Jacn Continue reading Compelled


September 16th 2020 Today I’ve decided to just, like… feel better? Like, I’ve been super depressed since maybe Friday and I’ve realised that not being sad is wayyyy better than being sad. So I’m just gonna try that out, I reckon. I’m not yet entirely sure what that entails but I’ve found that distracting my brain is helping. I started reading again. That’s been helping, because then my brain is engaged enough that it can’t really think about other stuff. Also, being at work is actually good because then there’s loads going on and I’m not just kinda led in … Continue reading Engaged


September 15th 2020 Today was a pretty unhealthy day. I had my breakfast bagel, as I do every day, but lunch was a Pot Noodle and dinner was Weetabix. Also I had two chocolate hob knobs which was surprisingly restrained for me as I’ve been known to eat a packet in a session. That’s also why I tend not to buy chocolate covered hob knobs. I also had what I think turned out to be a quadruple espresso from an unfamiliar coffee machine at the office, so I ended up quite dizzy. I did however drink quite a lot of … Continue reading Unhealthy


September 14th 2020 Today past me did future me a favour by going for a run as soon as I woke up. Future me would not have wanted to run when I got home from work, and past me knew that. Past me isn’t always a dick to future me. Sometimes past me is fiscally irresponsible and future me has to deal with it, but occasionally past me protects future me from situations that future me would rather avoid. It’s rare that I go for a run before 8am, because, in recent history, it’s rare that I’m out of bed … Continue reading Inoffensive


September 12th 2020 Today was a reset day. Other than to feed myself and go for a run, I barely got out of bed. I did some washing. I changed my bed sheets. I did bare minimum stuff to make it not a complete waste of a day, but I kind of needed it for the sake of my mental health. Sometimes you just need a day in bed to reset. Sometimes I think I need a day in bed but then end up feeling worse for it. Today was one of those. My grandma was rushed to hospital today, … Continue reading Reset


September 11th 2020 Today I successfully completed a week in the office without buying lunch from a restaurant even once. Sure, for the four days I was in the office I bought something from town, but a £5 sandwich is a lot better than the £30-50 I tend to spend on a lunch at Wagamama or Cote Brasserie usually. I’m pretty broke this month, so I’m tying to be careful and not just eat all my money like I usually do. So for this whole weak I have stayed steadfast in my decision not to do that thing we do … Continue reading Broke