November 16th 2020

Today my boss told me that I got my Belbin self-assessment wrong, and that I’m not the role I said I was — in her eyes.

I called myself a ‘Completer Finisher’ but she called me a ‘Shaper’. Here’s the description of a shaper:

The one I chose was all about detail, and accuracy. This one is all about a drive to get things done. And that’s a good thing, but this team role has worse negatives, I think.

It’s not that I necessarily disagree with the negatives, because I don’t: they’re pretty spot on, it’s just the negatives are harder to hear. Because I do want to get stuff done, but I don’t want to be a dick about it.

Annoyingly, though, ‘can risk becoming bad-humoured in their attempts to get things done’ is basically correct.

I wonder if it makes it better or worse that I’m conscious of the fact that I’m like that. I know what I’m doing when I act like that, but it works, so I’m kind of okay with it? I dunno. I just don’t know whether or not I should feel bad about the fact that I’m like that.

I think my boss would tell me to lean into it, and to embrace that I’m like that. You need different personality types, and roles within a team. And that just happens to be mine.

Part of me wishes that my role was a less confrontational, care free one, though also I kind of like that I give a fuck. What would be the point if I didn’t?

I dunno.

‘Has the drive and courage to overcome obstacles’

That’s pretty good, mind.

Until tomorrow, I’m not all bad news then.

Jacn