December 23rd 2020

Today I was accused by a friend of being “quiet recently”. And perhaps that’s true, but also, I’m always quiet. I’ll check in when I need something, but the rest of the time I am pretty distant. And that’s what I’ve always been like.

I don’t get involved in the group chats, or send memes to my friends, but I know that when I need them, they’re there. And that’s how I like it.

I’m not a great digital participant, but any time I’m invited to a social thing I almost always show up. It’s actually a flaw of mine, I can never say no.

But apparently I’m distant. And I’m quiet. I’m sure my mum would agree.

I like that I have friends that check in on me. Living alone during a pandemic has meant loneliness, in parts, sure. But I think I’m mostly fine? I love that my friends want to know how I’m doing. Shoutout Jim. Shoutout Duff. Shoutout Spence. Shoutout Kirstyn’s boyfriend.

I don’t mean to be quiet. I just don’t think I was ever really that loud?

Until tomorrow, I’ll try not to be so quiet.

Jacn