November 24th 2021
Today I think I’m doing okay but it’s often hard to tell. I’m focusing on work again as a distraction mechanism, which is both a good thing and a bad thing. For a while I was pretty checked out of work, mentally, but I’m into it again now.
I’m making lists and I’m making progress and I feel like I’m making a difference again. We’ll see how long that lasts.
It’s also potentially a bad thing because it means that mostly I’m just ignoring any actual feelings. But by now you’ve learnt that that’s just what we do around here.
Until tomorrow, the next couple days are going to suck though.