May 1st 2022
Today I’m at Mum and Dad’s for a kind of birthday dinner kind of generic Sunday dinner type vibe. It was the most fun I’ve had with them in a long time.
I’m not sure if it was the fact that I drank a lot more than I usually do around them, or that it was just me and them for once (sisters not included), but I felt like we spoke more genuinely than we normally do.
Often when we speak on the phone it feels like we’re just ticking off items on a checklist to update eachother on generic portions of our lives, but today we got deep into it.
We spoke deeply about my work, philosophically about life, and the ways in which us children emulate them, as well the ways that I look to them as this idealistic, romantic — though completely codependent — relationship which perhaps maybe sometimes almost sort of unhelpfully eeks out into my view of how relationships should function.
It was almost like a group therapy session, except there was a lot more beer than (and wine) than I imagine would be present at any kind of therapy session.
Also roast beef. Don’t forget the roast beef.
Until tomorrow, love you xx