June 9th 2022

Today I’m becoming more aware of the fact that I need to make some changes to my life. I’m unhappy at work and unhappy with myself. I just don’t know how to start.

That’s not true. I know how to start, I just can’t face it.

I want to become this super productive, successful, motivated individual, but right now I’m just in a slump. I’m coasting and floating, and even though I want to change it, I can’t.

So I really need to start thinking about ways which I can change it. Realistically. Even if it’s starting small. Teeny tiny steps in vaguely the right direction.

My problem, see, is that I don’t exactly know what direction I would like to head in. And I guess I could sit around and try to figure out the answer to one of the most complex, nuanced questions a person can ask themselves “Who are you, and what do you want from your life?” or I could just start flinging a load of shit at a wall and seeing what’s sticks.

Until tomorrow, or I could go to sleep.

Jacn