May 18th 2022 Today I think I’ve found the house that I want to buy. I’ve gone slowly off the search since multiple setbacks a few months ago, but more recently the market has calmed down slightly and I was emailed about a house that I knew I was going to love. I almost could have put an offer in just from seeing the pictures. I knew not much would change when I saw it in person, but I did so today. I’ve offered on three different places now, but this is the first one that I feel like I’ve … Continue reading Want


May 17th 2022 Today idk. I don’t feel my best. Some days are like that. Some days there is lingering anxiety, or annoyance, or anger. And those are just the feelings which begin with the letter A. There’s a whole alphabet of feelings worth talking about. I’m sure you feel like that sometimes too. Whoever you are. Days where you’re not entirely sure who you are, or where you’re going, or what on earth you’re doing with your life. And then you wake up, and somehow everything is a little bit rosier. Until tomorrow, step one, get some sleep. Jacn Continue reading Alphabet


May 14th 2022 Today was a lovely day. To start, Dad and I played golf at the Painswick Golf Club. It is a short, tricky, beautiful little course in a stunning part of the world. The bloody beat me again didn’t he. There are rarely days better spent than those where I take my dad to a golf course. I can’t think of many things I’d rather do. Apart from take my dad to a golf course and then also beat him at golf. That would be nice, once in a while. Later, we went for accidental afternoon tea at … Continue reading Lovely


May 13th 2022 Today I experimented with a new diet in an effort to fight the carbs and this weird belly bloat I’ve got going on recently. Usually if I have too much bread in a day I end up with a swollen stomach, so I’m trying to cut down on carbs. I’m not entirely sure where I got the belief that that will help, but I’m going with it. Breakfast Now, I’m a man of habit. For the past 3 years I have had for breakfast — almost every day — a toasted sesame seed bagel, spread with Philadelphia, … Continue reading Carbs


May 12th 2022 Today it’s fine because I don’t even like football anyway. I am strictly a fan and player of golf. It doesn’t bother me at all that Arsenal got battered in the biggest North London Derby in modern history, because I’d rather play golf anyway, honest. I am not even slightly upset at the thought that this game could be the difference between Arsenal qualifying for the champions league, or Spurs taking their place, because I’d much rather watch the British Open anyway. I’m not scared at the thought of playing Newcastle away on Monday without all of … Continue reading Mad


May 10th 2022 Today Im thinking I should probably start eating vegetables again. I haven’t eaten any since the salad I had on Friday morning in Romania. unless you count the lettuce in the McDonald’s Chicken Legend I had for dinner today — which I don’t know why you would. And there were no vegetables in the calamari I had for lunch either. Nor the pint of Asahi. I need to get back to some kind of normality. Though what is normality? I’m not really sure at this point. Until tomorrow, lettuce. Jacn Continue reading Lettuce


May 9th 2022 Today I was still on Bucharest time, so I woke up at 6am, was in the office by 8, and come midday I was confused as to why I was not yet drunk. I also probably have an ear infection, and a headache, and I had to have a cold shower this morning because for some reason I turned my water heater off before I left. It was my dad. My dad was the reason. I heard his voice telling me to save the gas. And I did! But then I had a cold shower this morning. … Continue reading Brrr